it’s crap. i’ve got this silly relationship with this guy, i’m madly in love with him although he really doesn’t deserve it, and we’ve just turned 5 months. it’s kinda crap and i feel like my whole person depends on him, and i hate it. i’ve changed so much because of him (he has too) and i just wanna be myself again. i’m turning into someone i don’t even know. and i can’t let him go. i’ve tried, and when i say i wanna break up, i start crying and he starts being all nice and stuff. and we’re getting bored of one another. i can see it in his eyes, that it’s not me who he wants. he wants me more beautiful, although everybody asks me why i’m hanging with such an ugly guy, and he’s really not perfect. i like him as he is, but still i gotta say i look better than him. and he has these weird looks when he sees something ugly at me. in the beginning of our relationship, he stepped over any of my flaws, not even noticing. he just loved me and now he doesn’t. i don’t get it why he still says he wants to be with me.