So it’s been more than a month since I last wrote. I haven’t written partly because I’ve been wicked busy, and partly because I’ve been embarrassed that things haven’t changed much… until the last week. =) I realized I needed to cope with some issues I have with food. I grew up with my mom telling me she was fat and not eating and exercising way too much. She gave me a really effed up mentality. So I used to eat too little and when no one was around binge eat and then punish myself by exercising too much. Well a few weeks ago something clicked in me and I decided it was time to change it. So I had my first counseling session last Thursday and I loved it. I already feel myself changing. It’s going to be a long journey to not obsessing about either not eating or eating… but I’m optimistic.

I ate pizza last night for the first time in God knows how long. I allowed myself. I felt guilty, but the fact that I did it says something. I didn’t fast today and althought I went to the gym, I didn’t overdo it. Hooray!!!

Oh and weight-wise I was embarrassed that I haven’t lossed any weight in about 2 months. I actually gained back about 3 pounds. But I’ve been working out five days a week and I can see my body changing. And today we fixed my scale and found out it was five pound too high! So I actually have lost about 2 pounds. Not a lot but really exciting. Also.. this got me really excited.. we found out my scale reads body fat and muscle percentage and mine was really good!

weight: 138.8 (I wanted to be 130 by July 4th, but I’m truly happy with my progress!)
body fat: 21% (healthy range for most women is between 20-30!!)
muscle percentage: 41%
weight lost since March 5: 13.2 pounds

Get excited! =D