it’s been about three years since i’ve come out to myself. i use ‘bisexual’ as my label just because i’ve always had a physical draw to women but i wonder if i do have any sexual draw to them.

i’m still in an awkward, trepidatious state. a big part of me wants me to get it all over with and just start being open about my sexuality but there’s still a lot of fear out there. i think a lot of it comes from me naturally being more inclined to protect myself from the negative or unpleasant despite whatever benefits there might be to glean from any situation.

but playing it safe all the time is not living.