First off, let me say that I’m hoping for the best possible outcome for your husband’s father. The time between hearing news of a crisis and learning its outcome seems to stretch on forever, I know…

The day my own father passed away, I received just such a call from my mother. She told me, hysterically, frantically, that my father had collapsed, and that he was being rushed to the hospital. it was Sunday morning, 9AM, and we lived more than an hour’s drive north. We drove. My husband drove, rather – I was in a state of shock.

By the time we arrived at HCMC, he had already passed on, as the result of a massive heart attack. It was the most miserable moment in my life, to date. I wish that no one else ever had to go through that.

Know that I’m thinking of you. These times are not easy so don’t give yourself a hard time and you are definitely not pathetic!!! Traumatic events like these are hard to deal with, especially when there are so many conflicting emotions going on… Life is unpredictable and due to the nature of the upset it is hardly surprising that you are feeling as you do. Take good care Pinknkit, as said you are in my thoughts….

Brian died.
I am finding even the simplest words unbearable.
He never regained consciousness & died of a huge brain hemorrage.

I am not ready to take on board what a ‘blessing’ it is etc.
I am too raw, angry & shocked.
It is not a blessing that a kind, dependable, hardworking, witty, sweet soul can be snatched away from the good life he planned to live.

I will go down on the train tomorrow to see my husband.
It feels such an eternity since yesterday morning. I need to ‘see’ him & hold him.

My beautiful son has been wonderful.
We are lucky we have such good friends that I can safely leave him with. He say’s he’s looking forward to having a sleep over but Im so worried for him being without us both.He’s taking it all too well.
Two days Ill be away, I need to go.

I have so much going on I feel Im suffocating.
I need to sleep & then take the next steps one at a time.

However,
Im pleased I logged on tonight, I needed to buy my ticket, & there were your kind words in my email.
I want to truely thank all who cheered this last post, it really means so much.
But especially Madame Reya,flowergirlresumed & catattack, for your words. They have helped more than you know.
I would like to thankyou properly but Im so sleepy, I hope you get to read this.
x

to hear your sad news.

Hold your husband close,
and take care of each other.

I am just aching for all of you; I was SO saddened to read this. It reminds me so much of my own wonderful father-in-law’s passing. I still get choked up when I think about him, and it’s been 10 years he’s been gone. In many ways I was closer to him than to my own Dad.

{{{{pinknkit}}}} Please take care of yourself at this difficult time.

Pink. I am so sorry you are going through this. I wish you strength and courage, and please know that our prayers and thoughts are with you:)