My relationship is sort of on hiatus. I felt like I wasn’t being a good girlfriend to my boyfriend. Since the layoff, I’ve been really anxious and unhappy, and uncertain about everything in my world. As much as he’d like to help, I’m not able to take it in. And I feel like I’m being unkind to him, which isn’t helping either one of us any.

I posted a thread yesterday, and deleted it because it was talking about surface things I have doubts about regarding him, but I don’t think I was being very honest with myself about it. Basically, I’m just in a horrible mood all of the time, and want to be alone. I didn’t realize that losing a job would have such an impact on my psyche.

Although I do have some valid concerns about him and me, at this point it’s more about my general malaise, so I’m going to sit with it for awhile.