As paralyzed and rotten as I currently feel, I would feel worse if it weren’t for a few things:

1. I know this is the worst that it will get. While waiting for my ex’s wedding, I was holding my breath, but now it’s over. It can’t get any worse. Until they have kids.

2. I met a guy online who is nice and he really likes and appreciates me, and I think he’s cute and he has some good qualities that I would like to emulate. I know he’s not my soulmate because the conversation just doesn’t flow, but I am happy to have someone to cuddle with at such a stressful time.

3. This other “deep” guy basically fell out of the sky and wants to get to know me and keeps asking me questions about myself, which is incredibly therapeutic given the circumstances. Don’t know whether he’s my soulmate, but there’s something there and he’s clearly interested.

4. Other than not doing any work, I am basically functional. I’ve been exercising at least a little every day. I’m cooking. I’m eating reasonably. I’m finding social things to do almost every day. I feel like I might lose 1-2 pounds in the next few weeks if this keeps up.

5. After making a big effort with benzoyl peroxide, my acne has almost entirely disappeared and the scars are fading.

6. This city is beautiful and exciting, especially in the summer.

7. My parents are supportive and helping me move.