I don’t know who I am and what’s inside of me (most of the time) and therefore I don’t know what to do in & wih my life. I have been sitting in front of my computer all day long, watching my fav series. I should have been studying but will have to do so at night. Whenever I do this instead if doing my duties, I feel like I’m a little more inside myself than usually, and then I know that what I’m doing is not what inspires me, lifts me up or gives my life meaning. Inside me is something that loves beauty and expression and excitement, and I don’t have the faintest idea what I am supposed to do with this. I used to think I wanted to be a singer or an actress, but singing has turned out to be just a hobby for me, and when I took an acting class, I failed completely – I just can’t do it, it seems. I also lack the motivation to “be” or play someone else. I think what fascinates me about the actors in really good movies and TV shows is how these people feel so free and wild to me… that is something I definitely miss in my own life, as well. Maybe I’ve just been looking in the wrong places, maybe I shouldn’t concern myself with what I should do with my life jobwise (I know I should), maybe the solution lies in some other area of my life.. who knows? I have a sense that taking more risks and worrying less will change much for me, so I am working on that. But there is something else inside of me that wants to be acknowledged and worked with and expressed. How? Where to start? What to do? I have no idea but appreciate any inspiration that hopefully will come my way.