At what point do you say enough? I need to come to terms with my standing with one guy. Every time I see the slightest room for an advancement, it turns out to be a dead-end – usually with him building the barrier. I know what we are in relation to each other, and yet there’s still that lingering thought in my head “what if”. I hate that. I want something definitive so I can get on with my life, but every time I try to take that stand I usually end up coming back after some coaxing on his part.
I’d love to be in control of my feelings. How do I do that?