molco wants to feel content

Overcome my eating disorder. (read all 2 entries…)

Anorexia  — 1 month ago

I have been diagnosed with anorexia. I want to get well and love myself, but… I don’t see how I will ever be able to. I just want to creep into bed and never get up again. I am scared of gaining weight and hate myself even more. I am scared of what others will think of me. But I am also scared that I will ruin my life forever. Nothing is as it used to be. I know I have to change this path, but I just don’t think I have the courage and strength to make it.

Jul 15, 11:54AM PDT 2 cheers

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cherry NOBODY SAID IT WOULD BE EASY. JUST THAT IT WOULD BE WORTH IT

you do have the strength. i have been there. i9 am there right now. i won’t preach to you right now as i haven’t found the way myself. i feel though, that one day i will do it. and if i can, anyone can.
you are so strong. all you need to do now is channel your strength elsewhere.
the fear of gaining is huge. of ruining what you have achieved. but surely recovery is an even greater achievement. choose life
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Jul 17, 12:32PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this

molco wants to feel content

Thank you. I am working hard right now.
I hope we can both choose the right path (life, not the eating disorder) and stick to it to the end.

Jul 31, 12:57PM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer


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