He’s at orientation right now and I can already tell we aren’t going to make it past the first week. What really sucks is today is our nine months. But I can tell-it isn’t going to work. I thought it might, we’ll only be 45 minutes from each other and it’s been so good. But like I said-it’s already looking bad. So maybe it’s best to stop loving him now-before it’s too late. I’m supposed to be so excited right now “the best time of my life” and all I really want to do is cry. Am I terrible for just wanting to stop loving him now?