But I really learnt alot at the Youth Camp we had this past week. It made me realise just how self-centered and angry I have become. Yeah my life sucks, and the world is a horrid place but I need to rise above all that. It’s all about choice. I want to be different for God. My faith has been hectically tested this week, so much so that I feel near the edge, yet at the same time I know He’s right there to catch me if I fall =) It’s just scary that the minute I decide to change, that very same day I come home to find that the one thing that gets me down the most has happened. Again. So now I have a challenge, to work through this without hurting anyone. And without wanting to. Because it’s just so easy to remain angry and hurt instead of pulling yourself together, forgiving those that hurt you, and moving on with your life. Trust me I know. But I have learnt so much in the past while that has caused me to realise how insignificant our lives on this earth are. It’s just the blinking of an eye. Who cares how many clothes I have, who I have in my life, or even how I look? These things strictly speaking don’t actually matter, although we would like to convince ourselves that they are imperative. All that should matter is God and whether I am doing my utmost to live for Him, and love others enough to care about their walk. God is enough. He is good. He will take care of me.