today was okay, except that i had to go the doctor and get two shots….=[ i really dont want my sister to think i’m scared of shots, so i pretended to be strong and she didnt suspected anything. i dont noe why, but during the whole day, i was thinking about him so badly. worse than i can imagine. i wish i havent liked him, but i did. the most happiest thing of the whole seventh grade was getting to be friends with him and fell in love with him. the sadest thing of the whole school year was cant stop thinking about him and cant pull myself out of this deep hole. when can i wake up and realize that i should look forward and forget the past? when can i forget about him completely? when can i start my new life??