My eating disorder has taken over my life and ruined my teen years. I lost a really good relationship over anorexia. My boyfriend broke up with me becuz he couldnt handle what i was doing to myself. Its over but i still love him and he made me realize although exagerrating just a bit that im hurting myself so much. I cant just eat. I feel horrible i feel full and when i cant purge i just want to die. Its taken over my life. I remember when it all started, and I honestly wouldnt change a single thing. Im not proud of it, but i dont regret it either. Its made me a better, stronger person. My family always said i was overweight. And now they say im to skinny and sickly looking. I dont see that, but its a huge change from 2 years ago. I want to recover..someday. I dont know when that will be. But i know i dont want to be like this for the rest of my life. I want a long relationship i want to be happy. I do want to be skinny. that will never change. Im struggling each day to eat or not to eat. I want to have a full recovery story someday. But you honestly cannot recover 100%.