I contacted a place for more information a couple of months ago, and a therapist returned my call, but I never followed through. I called her back last week and we’ve been playing phone tag, but she finally got ahold of me today and I have an appointment for my assessment in one week! Just knowing that makes me feel that much better, honestly. It’s like knowing that things will for sure start to improve.

I want to remember the key things to tell her – the comment my dad made about me never really being happy for a long while, my issues with indecisiveness (on both large and small scale), cycles of “depression,” constant crying, how I’m dependent on my boyfriend and others, how my friends saw a change in me about 2 years ago when my grandpa got sick/died and that it’s been one thing after another since then (quitting school, parents’ divorce, boyfriend’s father’s death, etc.), that I can’t stay in one place for long, etc etc etc. I’m a mess :-P

I hope I find what I’m looking for – not answers, but a road to a better me and a better life.

My only concern with this place is insurance/cost. I happen to have the only insurance they accept, but I don’t know that my plan allows for any mental health services. With my insurance, each session is $150 (ouch!), but I may only have to pay a deductable or a copay… I need to investigate my coverage ASAP.

But I really hope money doesn’t stand in my way – this is one of the big things I want to work on/”accomplish” before moving back to MI (and starting the life I truly want to live).