Creating genuine intimacy is about being completely honest. Scary stuff. But obviously we can’t truly know each other, love each other, if we’re not completely honest. And that includes the deep feelings that almost always triggers my fight-or-flight reflex.
I’ve known him so long, we’ve been through so much together, we’re so solid – just as able to spend every second together as months apart – and still it scares me so to completely open up.

Somehow, somewhere, I feel like my soul, my heart, the real, true me is so different, so complicated, so weird it would scare the ** out of him. Except I know it wouldn’t, because he knows more about me than anyone, more than I myself do at times. It’s like he can read my mind, or my soul even. He knows, and he’s still around. So why am I soo scared?