charleymarley is going to write for the Lush Times!!
My boy is the nicest person I know. He’s never nasty, he treats me like a princess, he’s good to all his friends, and always thinks of other people before himself. So why do I get jealous?
It should be the other way around, other girls should be so jealous of me! (And I think some of them really are). I have one of ‘those’ guys. Those that don’t disregard our feelings, those that make the effort to make us feel good, those that send you little texts or emails just to say that they love you and you mean the world to them. I have a guy that tells me he loves me almost every hour let alone every day!
Sometimes I understand why I feel the way I do and other times I can’t figure out why my head fights my heart. But I do feel like I’m further on in this goal.
Last week I had a really hard time with a couple of problems I just couldn’t shake off. When I get frustrated I get mad and take it out on him, which I know he doesn’t deserve. I can never talk when I’m angry because I just end up getting upset or it not turning into the discussion I wanted to have. This weekend I gave myself time to calm down and we chatted about my worries when I was feeling more confident. This worked out really well and we had a great talk, much better than me getting upset and not wanting to discuss anything.
So there, I feel I’ve moved further in trying to control my jealousy. I know that if I’m feeling bad I just need to say so and we can talk about it once I’m calm.
