i got so carried away whining and forgot to discuss this very interesting subject (my schedule)
my friend (the same one) wants to wake me up by phone everyday because he wants to so i guess waking up the 1st time won’t be a problem…. waking up again, however, will. maybe if i wonder what i should do to really wake up while i go to sleep then my inner mind will be a doll and allow me not to take the 2nd round of sleep after i wake up in melancholy as everyday

(and not to cheer the sad things you list.)

Well, some of us defintely come from a different planet :)

For me loneliness only really occurs when I am around people who don’t understand me and also who don’t attempt to. Never when i’m alone. When you’re around the people who are not right for you, I think loneliness is to be expected. Don’t hold onto him because you have no one else. It is better to be alone. It’ll probably enable you to find your own crowd/the people who are right for you too. Any imbalanced relationship means that you’re not going to be centered within yourself but operating yourself from an external perspective – what others think of you, what they offer you etc. I think the important thing is that you ‘get’ yourself and know how to express that to others. Those who are worth your efforts will listen and attempt to see things from your perspective. Those who don’t are a severe energy drain and you need to part with them. Anyway I hope you’ve worked it all out since then (or at least that he has become a better friend)!