I am very happy for you. I do not think you should feel bad at all. You made a great choice not going this is a time when you need to focus on you getting healthy not what people may think or say. It is good that your friend supported you. Hang in there, we are all here for you.

Thanks for all your comments, it make me feel liki im not alone, thanks for your support.
Kisses.

So true. It’s awful. And the shame is heavy as well. When I’m in the moment, and I’m drunk, I feel euphoric, to the point that I can’t stop and don’t want to, and I drink till there’s nothing left.

There are many things I love about drinking (and many things I don’t love.) I love the attention it gives me when I’m drunk at a party, and people smiling and laughing (with) me and helping me walk. I love feeling dizzy and like nothing matters.

But I hate when sobriety comes back and I realize they weren’t laughing with me, but AT me. I hate hearing about “what I did” when I was drunk, and not remembering most of it. I hate how when I drink I know I really have no respect for myself or my body. I also hate how when I’m drunk I feel like I’m in heaven, but when I come back down to NORMAL life, I’m disappointed.

There are by far more cons than pros… but the few pros there are so intense, it’s very difficult to give them up.