I guess what I mean is I would like to have more buddies in my life (some buddies do become “real” friends)—people that might be a bit closer than acquaintances. I have never had a lot of “true” friends; I believe trues friends are few and far between.

I know lots of people, I have had lots of acquaintances, but only a few dear “true” friends in my life. I definitely have room more more during the course of my life, but I know they do not come in droves. True, real friends are special.

As for having more bussies though, it would be nice at this point in my life to have acquaintance type friends or friends I can have fun with, even talk with about a lot of things, even if they are not that close. I still have two very close life-long friends and although we are physically far apart, they are my special friends who really know me, so I am happy for that.

But now, I am at a point in my life where, for various reasons, I really need new buddies. My recently made (in the past 6 years) buddies and I are all in very different places: some are going down paths I don’t want to even be near, and that make me sad; others have families and do family things all the time, and well, I don’t; and I recently found out that someone whom I considered a new yet close/good friend of mine was actually not at all.

I have started by hanging out a bit more with work “friends” here and there. It’s difficult for me: it feels like “dating,” and I’m not a “dater.” I’ve always tended to meet people and things happen, whether its a romantic or platonic relationship. Actually going out and doing things with the hope of meeting new people is foreign to me, so it’s hard.