So we met tues night.
and we talked.about everything. everything came out and it put us both straight. all cards were put on the table.
but it never got nasty or malicious.
if fact, it felt kind of relieving to be saying all the things I tried so hard to keep inside.
it was a little emotional for us both.
Anyway, we ended with a hug and she said that it was a big deal for her to be letting me back into her life again after so did so well to get over me, not to sound bigheaded! I gave her a lovely bunch of flowers that I had in my car, and we left it there. she said to leave her to text and ring me in her own time instead of me always initiating it.
the next day she text me. then after work she rang me.
I was so happy.
this will be a slow process but I have to show her she can trust me again.
I understand nothing will happen just yet, but friendship is a good place to start and I’m happy to be here rather than nowhere!
So, i’m giving her more time and space, and let her contact me in her own time. I told her I’d take her out for a nice meal and night out somehwere fun whenever she wanted, and that all she had to do was call.
She said it could happen.
We’ll leave it there for the time being.
meanwhile, I have stopped crying, work isn’t as bad as it was, and life generally has become less of a struggle.
I got some answers.
and got things off my chest.
It’s a start. and where else best to start? than at the start!