But is seems to be where ever I am. I feel like Alice in Alice in wonderland. Just when I think I have it.. something even more bazzar pops out! The more that happens to her the angerier she gets and the more frustrating her “life” feels. Currently I have that damn queen and that pesty cat and the mad hatter and his lil friend. The drama just all depends on what end of the cookie I eat and how much of it i eat. All so i can get to the other side. Does anyone get where i am going here? The point is Alice just got so mad that she eventually lost her head. Well, I am there and the anger is just building. I do not like being angry because that is not the dispotion i wish to have. People tell me how Dramatic i am however, if they even felt a drop of the horriable feelings I feel inside of me that I do not know how to handle because i am not a mean nasty ugly angry person they would get it. the sad thing is that most of this drama comes from my own flesh and blood. So here is the plan. .. . lay low.. and I mean really low. When something is said that I do not like… I am going to blog it to get it out. . . let them think it didnt get to me… and figure out some way to not let it eat me alive. I really do need to look into some sort of anger management course. I have began to loose myself in all of this junk and that is an option i am not willing to except.