Blew it. This was my chance to impress people, to overcome my crappy grades and try and create the future that I want. I’m too afraid, too anxious, too lazy. This is why I stayed in school and avoided getting a job, but now looking for residencies, instead of getting the great grades I needed to be chosen, I have to makeup for it, by impressing people and getting personal interaction to trump who I am on paper. And I am failing at that too. I am mediocre all-round.

But Monday I have a set of fresh faces to “impress.” And again after one month, and then again in Nov. Hopefully with all the people I meet, someone will take a liking to me.