I wanted to statr working on thi, REALLY working on this, and it made me sit back and think, really, why am I so scared? What is so scary out there that I need to write this down in order to work on it?

At first, I thought was afraid of failure. But I have “failed” (by my definition) at many things in life, and been able to kepe on plugging along no big deal. Surely it is dissapoining to not succeed at soemthing that you want, but it’s not the end of the world..

Concern over what others thought? Being laughed at? Looked at differently? None of these things are all that important to me….

I realized after a lot of thinking that it is my heart that is afraid. It has been hrut many times, and I’m tired of it. I guess to stop being scared, I have to be more vulnerable, and THAT is a scary thought to me…to open my heart up, to peopole, ideas, etc., and know that there is apossibilty that I won’t meet my goal, that Iwon’t be up to the challenge. So I figure, I need a new way of looking at failure…..to change a “failure” into “that was great!”

So last week, I did something that was VERY scary (for me). I did it knowing that I could be upset, hurt, embarassed, and it was terrifying. And afterwards, I looked at my frfiend, and I said, you know what…I am very proud of me. Enough said. :)