A reminder from SWAZ made me realise that probably this is one goal that’s ready to be marked “Done”. It’s amazing how so much has changed within a few days. It’s not even a week but I feel like a new person. It’s scary and exciting. I don’t want this feeling to stop. But I wonder if I’m truly ready to give up some of my old die-hard habits.

The ESQ 165 training that I attended made me realise how I’ve been neglecting my spirituality all these years. I was ashamed and deeply saddened thinking how unfair and ungrateful I’ve been to my Creator. And even more than that, how I’ve turned my back on His unconditional love and blessings.

It’s hard going into details though inside I feel like bursting. There’s so much to share but I am also afraid that I might confuse others and instead, scare them into thinking I’ve been possessed or lost my mind altogether. But in short, I’ll say this. I finally understand that it is God’s love that I’ve been looking for all this while.

When I feel such joyfulness staring into a night sky flooded with stars, or when a blue sky gets me all teary-eyed. When I am stopped in my tracks marveling at how everything seems so clean after the rain. It is God and His infinite grace that touched my soul. It is His forgiveness and acceptance that makes me whole.

I am grateful lightning never struck me. Otherwise, I might never know this serenity that washes over me and allows me to start anew.