I have never really been satisfied w/ the way my life goes… I am constantly feeling torn & depressed or just very tense. When I think something will go alright it goes wrong. My depression doesn’t help much. My mom recently told me that she doesn’t think that I am staisfied w/ everything that she does for me. I am just not over all happy w/ being myself. And I just need good friends to help me out. The ones I thought were my best friends since 5th grade stopped talking to me after our graduation year this year. which makes me feel like shit again. Because it has happen to me once before in 9th grade w/ another friend. I wish to curl up and wake up a month or more later at times. Sry for the rabbling bullshit.