Muriel is realizing her life circumstances.
Oprah and Rev. Edwin Bacon, Jr.
Bacon: If these people have developed a theology that makes them dependent on a doctrine or a dogma, they are not interested in being liberated to trust their inner voices.
Oprah: So what is the difference between doctrine, dogma, and true religion or being a religious person?
Bacon: My faith, my spirituality, is what I live for – it’s actually, what I would die for. My doctrine and my dogma is what I would kill for.