Knowing what I felt and wondering how much am I wrong about in life. It got me to questioning lots of things I thought I was sure of. But to counter all of that, I went to my parents.

Adam {brown baby number 2} was there and not the least bit happy, every one was busy cooking and trying to calm him down {his parents are at the lake having some VERY important alone time} So I took Adam to say he settled in my arms easily is an understatement.

He was not happy and damn it all to hell no one was going to make him feel any better either. He was unhappy so he was making sure ever one around him was not feelin’ the love either.

he cried, I soothed…{my sister called me a sucker with evil laughter} he cried more, LOLOL I told him to get it all out, you go on ahead and tell me baby, tell me just how pissy the world is and get it all out.

Before I knew it I was sitting there all comfy with the little man all snuggled up to me all comfy {no more crying}. His eyes were getting heavy and mine have been up since two this morning so I was not in the best of moods. but there we were, just the two of us, among all those people.

We hit our calm stride, Adam and I must have sat there for near two hours just looking at everyone as they passed, content and happy to be in one another’s arms. He felt safe and slowly drifted to sleep.

I pulled him closer… nothing makes you feel worthwhile as a baby does. Thank God Adam was there for me to love on, he was just what I needed.

I tried to get a good picture of his little hands but the angle I was at and holding him, they turned out sucky, but I tried.