I already knew that I didn’t have very many friends, but it didn’t bother me too much. Now that I am unemployed, looking for work, and living with my parents, it is much more apparent to me. I just sit at home all day sending my resume to anywhere that has an opening even remotly close to what I can do. I’ve pretty much sent it to all of them. I haven’t been getting any good responses. I feel like I have no connection with anybody on this planet, and it’s killing me. I wish so badly that I had someone to tell my fears to, that wouldn’t judge me, or be thinking “Gee, this is the last time I want to hang out with her”. I cry all the time now. Anywhere from 3-10 times a day. It feels like the world is collapsing on top of me and I’m supposed to just stand there and smile throughout. It really hurts to have things hit your head, but nobody wants to, or has the time to listen to me whine about it. I have one friend that I’ve tried to talk to but every time he just starts telling me what I need to do, having no understanding of how hard those things would be. So I just smile for him now and tell him I’m doing much better. And here’s a good one I cam up with the other day: Nobody wants to be around me because I am depressed, but, I’m depressed because nobody wants to be around me. I’m screwed!