If I’d known it would be this difficult for me to get knocked up, I wouldn’t have been so paranoid about it in my younger years! My mom says I’m trying too hard and stressing myself out and that when I stop trying so hard, it’ll happen. Isn’t that true of so many things in life? Like finding true love, or trying to fit in. I’m weary of beating myself up for things that are out of my control. I’m tired of obsessively taking little monthly tests that “I fail”, making me feel like I’m not doing something right or trying hard enough. I’m going to stop trying to plan everything out so strategically and just relax, live my life, and let things happen naturally starting… (deep breath)...NOW!