well me and my exfiance have been emailing each other more. and this past couple of days has been awful. he said he still has feelings for me but not anywhere near the same. but i am still in love with him a year and a half later. i’ve been trying to date guys but none of them last. i’m not sure how to meet guys anymore. but worst of all… i have this huge doubt that i will never fall in love again. i don’t want to settle for a second best. i mean how would it be possible to fall in love again if a part of my heart isn’t mine. cuz i think my first love will still always have a part of it.