gosh this is so hard. i’m finally at a stable, healthy weight though (and hating every second of it). so at least i’ve achieved something! i have my first ever ed counselling appointment in a couple of days =[ i had coe when i was 11-13, and ednos (anorexic tendencies, only reason i’m not anorexic is the lack of amonerrhea [sp]) ever since. that’s 9 years of eating disorders. so far about 4 months of recovery.