For so long i didnt do anything and becasue i wasnt doing anything i didnt want to do anything and so on which got me caught in that downward spiral. But now things are beginning to change, i got a full time job while im waiting to resit that one assignment for uni, it gives me a reason to get up in the mornings and also gives a strucuture to my day which makes me feel better about myself and i think it also motivates me to do other things. Like today i just got back from my gym induction which was one of the things i wanted to get back into but i kept putting off because of this lack of motivation. But things are looking up now.

I’m now wanting to make the most of my time off and do things that i want to do but in the past just never really done, just simple things like going out more, going to new places and so on. Having things going on in my life just makes everything so much more worthwhile and i really enjoy everythign i do now. I think a break from the old routine was definatly the key to this. I just hope that next year when i hopefully go back to uni i can contiune this knew thirst for life.