There used to be a time, that I would just be walking down the sidewalk, and I’d suddenly just stop and take a deep breath. I used to be able to notice the color in the leaves, the crisp air, the sunnyness of the day. The past few months I seem to have lost that sense of just being happy with the moment. I don’t stop anymore to notice these things. I remember these secret smiles creeping across my face that just made me feel so good about everything, while realizing that I probably looked like a creep to everyone else since I was laughing to myself, but it didn’t matter because I was just happy with life and everything. I’ve been stressed out a lot. I think too much about things. I worry too much about my relationships. I should have just let things be and waited to see how things fell into place. Anyways, I’m working on living in the moment again. I want that smile back…