I’ve been on ritalin, adderall, and another med that I forget the name of.

I hated the ritalin and ended up giving it away to people. Who found other (illegal) uses for it.

The adderall helped but also hindered. I’d be very focused and productive for 2 or 3 hours; but then my hands would start shaking, I’d get hot, just not a good feeling. Like I was on speed. To calm myself down I would have a few (sometimes many) cocktails. Such a healthy cycle, right?

And the other one, I wish I could remember the name. I noticed nothing at all from it. Supposedly a non-addictive pill.

I don’t take anything now. I haven’t followed up on it. I like my crazy self too but GEEZ. I really need to focus sometimes and it would be so wonderful to find some sort of balance. Everyone just thinks I’m irresponsible. And yes, sometimes I am. But I have the best intentions, I want to do everything so I start all these projects at once and end up finishing none of them. It wrecks havoc on my self-esteem. I haven’t brought up the ADHD factor ever as an excuse for anything, but privataly I think some things it’s certainly a factor.

you’re on the right track with fish oil, look into amino acids… one book to check out: the mood cure by julia ross & google “adhd amino acid”

But “I’m not willing to become a zombie and lose all my personality”
makes me wonder. I’m on Concerta and certainly still have my personality and are in not a zombie in anyway. But I respect that you aren’t interested in medicine. I just wanted to add that medicine doesn’t necessarily do that to people. I also heard about fish oil so that might be worth a shot, some people swear by keeping a diet you can read about here
Good luck.