I know that every bad thing I have done or gone through has only shaped and forged me into the person I am now, but I still wish that I could have become better through some happier life lesson.

I regret the things that I didn’t do. I regret the way I’ve become so bitter and distrustful. I regret tending the bad relationships and letting the good, healthy ones dry up and die. I regret not catching on sooner. I regret not taking Sciences in High School so that I could be a Bio major now. I regret loving him so much and knowing we’d be together forever (and selling my furniture because of this) only o have him change his mind.

These regrets swim through my mind. They are part of what I am. I have to let go of a part of myself even though I am still weak from giving too much of myself to people who only tossed those pieces aside.