Isabelle you sound like a wonderful woman, you say you don’t have friends, make some, you say your partner is overprotective…. show him his borders and make sure he doesn’t cross them. I congratulate you on conquering your drug addiction and sincerely hope you stay clean. Its times like these when you have to remain optimistic and keep your faith. Feeling the way you do is normal. Its the way we all feel when we are not high off some drug. What you need to do is live your life the right way. Find balance in your daily life. Look for good genuine friends who can care for you and help you get through hard times. Most importantly of all you need to love yourself your life and the world around you. You can do this by going out more maybe to places that you enjoy being, sight seeing, most importantly you need to help every person that crosses your path even in the smallest ways, helping others is more rewarding than you think and I think you’ll agree its a great feeling.