I have a few setbacks, every so often hormones take control and it clouds up my way of thinking. There’s so much going on it’s hard to keep all my emotions on one level. Whilst I feel i’ve conquered part of the green-eyed monster there are other parts I still have to work on, and to be completely honest I don’t think they will ever be resolved. I believe it’s just a part of me, how my experiences have shaped me. People always talk about how things help you grow and be a better person, well I think this one thing isn’t going to help me be a better person but it’s making me a person. I care about things…I care so much about my relationship I want to make damn sure nothing is going to ruin it. Lets just say I’m coming to terms with the fact my emotions can’t just be put away, they’re out there, they’re here to stay and they’re just showing exactly how much things mean to me.

So this is it for controlling my jealousy, I’ve found a way of coming to terms with it rather than controlling it, and I think I’ll be okay from now on.