brannen is dwelling in possibility, once more.
How do you change your life? Road to Damascus experiences are few are far between I suspect, and despite the obvious appeal, most us may never have one. I can change my clothes, my socks, my earrings and my hair. I can change the postion of my desk, my diet, my curtains, my light bulbs, my mind. But that fundamental change in my life that I am after, getting to that place where I have something different, better, more than what I have now, how do I get there?
First, I should define ‘there’ and then map out a plan. That’s the theory. That’s what a self help book would tell me, or even a friend blessed with new age sensibilities and common sense. But what you can’t factor into the plan is the inevitable agony and struggle that goes along with internal change. The slipping and sliding that happens when you trudge uphill, the bruised elbows, egos and knees. If breaking old mental habits and toxic thought processes were easy, a whole industry would go bust, two, no, at least three – pyschotherapy, self-help books and gurus, and at least one segment of the pharmaceuticals game. If it were easy to shake off fear and insecurity or at least not let them get in the way of living and dancing, every day would be Mardi Gras and I would be Queen of the Carnival.
