Delylah is gonna make it
Well it’s been several weeks since I’ve posted. Things have not been good for me for the last 11 weeks (going through a long, dragged out breakup), and I’ve been self medicating with alcohol a lot. I’ve been eating very unhealthy, not exercising, and just basically feeling like crap about everything.
So I talked to the soon-to-be ex last night on the phone, and when we hung up after arguing the whole time, something came over me that told me that this WAS IT. I’ve had enough letting this man run my life and affect my health. I can’t blame him directly for my alcohol abuse these last fews weeks, because he certainly didn’t force me to drink anything. But I know that bad things and unhealthy relationships trigger my drinking. That’s why I need to simply walk away and not communicate with him anymore.
I made a list of all the things about him that are not good for me (alcohol is one of the top reasons), and I also put a big DAY 1 on the wall to start the clock, so to speak. I’m ready to get my life back.
I am planning to start being a regular poster here again, because it has helped me tremendously in the past. I need this support.
Thanks for listening everyone. I will check in soon.