when i look at myself, all i see is this ugly fat girl with ginger hair staring back in the mirror and it makes my cry!!
i hate the way i look…im fat, ginger, have too many spots and i could go on and on but it just gets embarassing and even more depressing!!
i hate myself!!
and my family has no worries about picking on me and calling me fat and so on, and my cousin calls me the ugly one!
it really hurts and until a year ago i didnt think i looked all that bad, but with what ive been going through this past year all i see is an ogre!!
i would love to be thin and pretty but it’ll take a miracle for that to happen!
i want to be loved and not picked on and i want someone to care about me and how im feeling rather than be the one knocking me down!
it hurts soo much inside and i dont think anyone can tell becuase no-one actually cares!
im just going to have to keep putting on my fake smile and pretend its all ok!!
what can i say….thats life!
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