although, let it be said, that I half felt like I was fighting back tears, 10% feeling sorry for myself, 5% feeling all alone in the world, and what does that leave left…..35% just enjoying the party and being happy for my friend…... when I walked out I felt like I had made a successful appearance, smiled, and reminded myself on the way home of all the abundance I do have. Now home, and almost recovered, but it was something alright! I feel so much like Samantha from sex in the city right now, except with the desire for a child… a combo of Samantha and Charlotte, that’s me, what a frickin combo!