well i thought i had been ‘recovered’ since August, having a meal and a snack a day and managed to maintain my weight in a comfortable zone, i havent purged since early August but i can feel myself slipping.

I think a relapse is coming, it feels like there is another side of me trying to get out and it will do anything it can until it does. Recently Ive stopped feeling hungry, i’ve become aggresive and started to shout at people unexpectedly and then take any anger and frustration out on myself by, well you know, doing what an anorexic does best =( .

I havent starved myself much recently, and have been eating to try and keep my energy up, but i’m still scared that i might fall back into my disorder.

I think i just need to organise my life a bit.