I have had a look through flats available… nothing special really but instead

I have discovered something interesting

I am more clingy to the place we live in (house and neighbourhood, region etc.) than to my parents themselves (it’s rude but so true). And where I work is almost 80 km from here. I drive each and every day to forth and back which takes me a lot of time and therefore I wanted to move out to the city I work in. But, do I really have to live where I work, in particular when I do not really like that big city? It sounds like being dragged by my life instead of walking through it, which is a genious denial to what I am heading for. I want to create my life. I want to move out of my parents’ house. In general, I like my job to quite an extent (oh my…, what a liar you shelagh!! I appreciate my boss who is actually the only reason I am still there!! but he is really genious and wise and motivating and professional and all the best words in the world here for him).
If I were to live somewhere near the place I live, I could live even alone. But THERE, myself alone? My boyfriend is not there (not at the moment at least), my family is not there, my friends … some of them are there but still the best not. Is anybody really surprised I am glued to the place that is called my parents’ house? To add, I cannot afford (in terms of finances) living on my own here and driving to work… I’m young and I’m underpaid… (AM)
Hope I am not just making excuses …

All in all, the truth is I am leaving soon. And another truth is, I don’t want to be dragged – it’s harmful. Time to stand on my own feet.