My granny used to say ’ never regret the things that made you smile!’
I dont.

BUT that is why I regret to push the ‘i give up’ button!
There’s no point being someones option when you make them a priority. It’s just not fair, and in the long run, it’ll be better for us both.

The past few weeks have been really hard. I have had minimal contact with Jane. Texts. Not even spoke to her or seen her. And the messages have been cold and left me feeling really really down.
Today’s the day to hit the button.
Ive cried all the tears I can spare now and am sick of feeling worthless and unwanted. Its time to remove it off my list and out of my mind. The day I put the goal up I knew it would stare me in the face every day I logged into 43T, and maybe that is not going to help things.
Its time to dust of the cobwebs and pick myself up again.
It’s going to be hard but it’s the only option left I feel.
It’s the only things left I can do!
It’s the last thing I want to do, but giving up is the only way forward at this moment in time I think.
I tired of being sad and I want to be happy again.
If you love something, set it free.

She is set free.

But fuck it’s painful!

I could do with a hug right now :-(