you are brave,
you are strong, not weak
you are not self-indulgent, selfish or pathetic.
You are allowed to have your ups and downs like the rest of us.

lots and lots of love.
Axx

the words of restless. {{{{Paula}}}}} This, too, shall pass

I agree with everything Restless said too. I am hoping that you continue to share your feelings here because there are a lot of people who care.
Nite Pinky.

I can not deny your feelings. Just know we are always here for you! And squeeze that kitty BP sent, because I’m sure it will make you feel better!

I get in places like you are describing. It is like a hole that keeps sucking you in further and further. I’m sure you know this, but a reminder anyway that you can not trust those thoughts of self-loathing, shame, and self-hatred. They are part of the sickness, and they are lying to you.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Be kind to yourself.

people love you, thats all that matters. let their love, and care be a rock for you as you work through this horrid time.

Take that love and care deep inside and let it help you when you need it most :)

There is no need to feel that you must keep up. You will find your way.
For now my dear accept our strength and hugs when you are unable to feel you can carry on. As you have done this for me a number a times with your encouraging words. I thing I love being here at 43T is that you are able just to be you when you are here and nothing more and nothing less.

{{{Hugs}}}

As I offer hugs, love and reassurance (as everyone here) I must also thank you for your kindness and honesty through this, to allow us in a bit with support and caring when you need it. It is with grace and courage both you are facing this difficult time. I admire you for that, but above all your own honesty and caring nature.
((((((((((((((((((((pinky))))))))))))))))))))))

_{I was so busy with my own small whtvr—}

all is said already.
This will pass; and you’ll know that you have worked enough, and this is not because of a fault or a reason.Be kind to yourself! Hey, we love you! xxx

Wot they all said….

Hope you come through this dark patch soon, all shiney and bright.

Wishing you lots of strength.

“I love you and there’s nothing you can do about it.”

Paula, we all love you, and we love all of you, including your weakness, depression, and frustration with yourself, as well as your strength, courage, and kindness. And there’s nothing you can do about it. :)

A big hug:

(hug)

you deserve all this love and support and more. You are always there for others so it is okay for others to be there for you. You are not weak, depression is a bastard thtat pounces right out of the blue and no matter what, we have to go through it. You will be stronger when you come out the other side, honest. You are such a lovely lady P, you really are, I truely appreciate you and I hope soon that a smile will return to your face and happiness to your heart. Take care xxx