I was a normal, healthy weight until around the age of 13. I was depressed for most of the 8th grade and gained about 20 pounds over my ideal weight. While in high school my weight fluctuated 10-20 pounds over my ideal weight. Whenever I gained closer to 20 pounds over, I starved myself and exercized for hours on end until the weight came back off, which only took about a month to do. I resorted to taking laxatives and diuretics to lose weight. Mainly, I starved through most of my high school years. I thought I was “soooo huge” at 117 pounds. I am only 5’ tall, but 117 pounds is no big deal even for how short I am.

After I got married I gained up to 200 pounds. If that wasn’t bad enough, I became pregnant and gained more. Long story short – after having 3 kids within 7 years, my weight topped out at 264 pounds. I discovered that I am an emotional eater. I have put everyone else’s needs before my own, but my children are older now and it’s time to think about me again.

I am down about 10 pounds just from being more active, but I’m struggling with losing the weight. I want to lose down to at least 120-125 pounds. I turned 35 this year and I don’t want to go into my 40’s being this obese. I have vowed that I will lose the weight and I’m giving myself the time to do so. So, here I am…..35 years old, 5’ tall, 255 pounds, enrolled in school, starting a new job soon, have been to a nutritionist and therapist…...I’m ready for the new me! I love the outdoors and I want to do so many things…I’m doing it! I’m on my way!

January 31, 2009
Weight: 248 pounds. Down 7 pounds from last entry! Down 16 pounds from my highest weight! YAY!