I know exactly what you mean. I have people that im “friends” with but not friends that I hang out with all the time and genuinely trust in. But i’m just open to meeting new people and eventually i’ll meet people that will become my good friends. Don’t give up on this. Just be yourself and put yourself out there and meet some people. Trust me theres tons of people that you can meet. Just give it some time and in the meantime use this time to get to know yourself better. And you can even get to know your acquaintances better. Please don’t be depressed or say that your suicidal-nothing in the world should ever make you say that. Theres so much to enjoy in life- just don’t put so much pressure on yourself. So go out and meet some people :)