I gave up on this and to be honest I was doing quite well, but after todays events I think I need to really work on this one.

So last night I cut while drunk, I made a mess of my arm. This morning I really did regret it after seeing the state of my arm. I got dressed and headed into work but about an hour into my shift my arm began to really hurt, I went to the toilet to find the inside of my jacket and tshirt sleeve covered in blood.

I debated biting my lip and getting on with my shift or confiding in my old team leader, at first I just asked her for some bandages but she asked why (even though I think she knew)

A long story short and the first aider had to get involved, they had to help me get my jacket off at this point, this is when I saw the look of shock and sadness on my old team leaders face… my face probably looked ashamed as thats how I felt.

Afterwards, the team leader just logged me out of my systems and told me to go home without even giving me a choice, not in an “angry go home now” way but in a “I can see you shouldn’t be in work today” way.

Not only does this reiterate that I shouldn’t get drunk alone (this isn’t the first time something like this happened) but also I really need to stop this, it’s the first time work have become involved and it really was shameful.