Well, I haven’t heard anything for officially 3 weeks now, though I have sent some emails and texts. I’m worried and a little sad about it, but also too busy even to think. Also, I just have to remember that he’s in a place with no phone and no internet (most of the time) and no time or privacy, and just trust that he’s not a douche. But it’s hard and a bit weird, and I don’t like the idea that maybe he HAS had access and just doesn’t give a shit. It’s hard not to be negative and stay positive.
Work and art coming along OK, finances still apocolyptic, need to find a job in the worst way. It’s hard to feel like I’m even in a relationship at all to be honest.