I appreciate your comments. I know you too have been struggling with this for a long time. I’ve been reading your posts for several months, all the time thinking how alike we are. I often wonder if having a boyfriend/husband would make this any easier for me. I mean, other people often talk about their spouses supporting them through this (or at least they have someone to answer to when they come home drunk). Not to sound like a sob story, but I don’t have anyone to face when I go make a fool out of myself at the bar or come home drunk at night. Only myself.

UGH, this is so hard. I need to learn how to be strong and tackle this. I will never go anywhere in life or see my dreams come true as long as I keep behaving this way :-(

Thanks so much for the support. Things should be better tomorrow (I’m pretty hungover today and feeling like crap for yeling and screaming at a friend over the phone last night in a drunken rage).